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putrid, vile, shit. thats the mirror talking to me, that strange fucking solid which reflects every fiber and etching in your body or every blemish and weakness in you. you learn to hate yourself, disgusted at the mass of un-coordinated, un-proportioned, un-perfect body you hold on your frame. shit my calves are small, damn my lats aren't blowing up enough, where the hell are my traps!
these are the bad days, the days when you feel like you are on a missile which is heading in one direction: Down. you try to find a reason to pick yourself the fuck up but you cant find anything, shit everyone around you is so damn normal, absent minded to the physical and mental war you are battling, you struggle through the day or night dreaming of what you want to represent and how damn far away you are from all this. bodybuilding has consumed your day, usually you can put aside your warfare for a single hour to return to reality but truly in your world, the sky is coming down, you are dripping of weakness and no one can help you.
this is when you are alone, nothing can stop you from heading to the dirt, i say hit fuckin rock bottom, but then like a enigma remember your not alone, in essence you live for yourself, but you are bound by blood of legends, brothers, those who have achieved and have the opportunity of carrying the flame for those who have not achieved. You carry a small part of that madness to be the best. dont fuck up, make the best of your ability to take pain. take the mirror's straight forward answer, take it and make it hurt you, because you will not die and YOU will grow back stronger,bigger, better. i am in this game because im meant to have stretch marks all around me, im meant to be called a freak, but fuck im far from that and no one is stopping me, believe me brothers, this is my life.
lets live brothers.
Bam Bam
01-27-07, 10:00 pm
Im livin it right here wit ya bro. 24/7/365 its a never ending struggle. All you can do is put your head down, square your shoulders, and plow through.
Legendary
01-28-07, 1:59 am
I hear ya bro, those days fucking suck. Some days can be messy, nothing feels right. Its twice as hard as you ever thought it could be, feelings of frustration swarm over me in waves. Most days I let those waves go right through me, other days I get pulled under. No matter how fucking far under I am, I always find my way back to the surface. Thats how I approach those kind of days, I remind myself that there is purpose and set that hostility on anything that gets in the way. For anyone out there who feels like drowning, struggle to get to the top for air, let nothing fucking hold you back. Without struggle life has no rewards and purpose is defeated. Don’t let circumstances define you. Control your life, don’t let your life control you. Diminish the fear of going under. Fight hard and strong brothers.
for a second i thought i was the only one, thx animals.
D, we all have those days...the hardest part is remembering that we are amongst the elite in society....we have answered the call of the iron.
dont ever forget that..and always live the code
Strength and Honor.
today, at the gym i saw a young animal who has started paying his dues, today i was proud to look in the mirror and see myself. today was different, today is something of a change. today i felt animal.
Rcrott1 i agree strength and honor will bind you to the iron to bring across a new light to darkness.
D
glad you are back animal! keep hittin the iron and show it who is boss.
where do i find my will-power?, all around me people say big is ugly, don't get like those big muscle guys, girls don't like them. your closest in family totally objects to your desire. Sure they do a shit load for you and do help you. but then there comes that point when you seem to be too "big" for them. that your not being who they expect you to be. i ask again where do i find my willpower?
right here.
right here in this freaking website, this place is full of guys/girls, stuff that better yet Freaks on display who couldn't give a weathered shit over what others could think of them. i have searched and searched on here to find those first articles which rose up out of the minds, the damn insanity i needed to read from some freaking bad-ass freak. it becomes a disillusion i want to stay in, i want to grow and achieve this state of body. its a discipline. no matter what you need to keep training your mind/body/will-power/spirit. when your puking your guts out do you go and finish training? or do you go clean up, put your pink towel on and put your neat little shirt on? fuck yea one of the first paragraphs i read on here which stands out is these guys who puke and puke and come back and come back for some more and more. because they want this "something" so bad. shit just eat those calories back after the workout.
will-power on here is taught to come from within, if you lose that fire you either were not destined to be someone greater, some one who takes up more space than the average family or you just have no guts.shit live life large fella's find that will. its in every rep, every pump and every full puke bucket.
never_2_big
02-27-07, 6:22 pm
well written brother, we all know what youre talking about, whether the rest understand us or not is doesnt fuckin matter. it's all about us anyway. stay true bro head high and go hard
so so true my brother.....I love what you say here...it fits...its us....we love this shit. You motavate me bro....and its people like you that add so much to this forum...this is a unique brotherhood..its the best....and I get so much energy from this wonderful bunch of brothers in iron...thanks D Bomb....I appreciate with how busy you are with school you have time to hit us hard....right between the eyes with what is so true...
keep it commen bro....
in your corner...
I saw those pics to bro looking like an animal when youo decide to really cut you are gonna be a monster think about getting in some somps bro good idea kep it up.
thanks brothers, nah but seriously i want to bring the full package to the stage. my calves are lagging in my mind and i could do with some more serious width.
thx and props to those who feel the same as I.
rcrott1
02-28-07, 10:52 am
D,
you and i are one in the same brother. i get my motivation when i dont feel like hitting it as hard, from this place. the thoughts and hardships of my bretheren drive me forward in this fight against the iron, and gravity.
keep hitting it hard brother. we are all behind you 100000000000% when you get on that stage
Strength and Honor.
Great post D, couldn't agree with you more. As for rcrott1, you both are fucking freaks. Keep it goin brothers. Someday I'll have the intesity of both of you guys.
thx Preston thats some major props :) animal its inside you, just unleash it, find something positive and unleash it on the weights.
Good shit D-bomb, way to keeping it real.
thanks Angst. as long as im providing some motivation even for the older crowd, then i've done what must be done.