PsychoDave
01-17-09, 12:42 am
My name is Dave, im 23 and new to this game. I've been a member of the forums for a while now and i really haven't said shit but now its my time to share, its my time to grow and its my time to shine. 5 years ago I was the fat kid(5'10 270lbs). I stand today at 215-220lbs but thats only because ive gained 25lbs or so last year but not because i was working hard at the gym. You see friends my workout routine consisted of vodka, corona, jack/coke and i dont give a fuck shrugs. I lost 80lbs with nothing more than a good diet, not drinking and cardio but because of my struggle with alchohol in the past year or so i was heading back up the scale for all the wrong reasons. The only things i've lost this year so far are my job(company was bought out), I lost my girl because of my drinking, i lost my license for a year due to a second DUI and i lost my appetite for the consumption of alchohol. I also just spent 4 days last week locked up in jail because of my DUI. Im currently going through treatment for my drinking problems...Its been 8 days since my last drink and i dont fucking miss it for shit. Im done with it because I cant handle it. Im a blackout drinker, I dont remember getting my last DUI...I woke up in the local police holding cell. Ive woke up in the hospital twice, the woods once, a commuter parking lot once. Im not here for sympathy because i dont need that shit. Im here right now because I need to become the best fucking person I can be. About a month ago I discovered something so great, so gratifying, so fucking amazing and i have been hooked since...Its not some beautiful girl, its not a new drink, but it is what i now consider my drug. Its something i believe everyone here is hooked on as well and that is the gym. Its not just the gym itself that has me hooked though. Its the feeling before, during and after i leave there...It feels like my home, a place where i feel so fucking welcome, a place where i can let everything else go and i dont think i felt that anymore then i did this past week. This is the reason i fell compelled to share my story with the rest of you. We all struggle through bullshit day in and day out and i found my way to release all the bs from my head. I grab the iron and i want to kill it, i want to strangle it, i want to fucking rip it apart. My body is my fucking sanctuary and im done treating it like shit, im done feeling bad for myself, im done with looking in the mirror and wondering what I could be. Its time to challenge and conquer myself. Now with all that bullshit said and done you all get a pretty little picture of the person I once was...Now I ask for the help to accomplish what i can be.
Now to my present day situation. Because I lost my license obviously i dont drive but i have an awesome family that back me 100% in everything I do. I go back to court on the 23rd to find out if im going back to jail. Did I mention I was on probation already? Its a pretty fucking sad story if you ask me but nothing i cant get over. So maybe ill end up in jail for a few weeks or a few months but right now im held up in my house and the only place i can really go besides here is the gym. I was givin the nickname Psycho Dave by an older friend a couple years ago because I have some anger issues to say the least and i have done things that i am truely sorry for but those days are done as well. I am an animal at heart and thats what I want to become on the outside as well. Right now I would not say im a strong guy whatsoever but i would say im a skinny kid stuck in a fat suit. As of right now I dont have many stats to give. My bench press is embarrassing...I just started to put 135 up for reps. I began a few weeks ago at about 110 i believe. Last week I couldnt deadlift 315 but this week i did it for 3reps. I havent done squats yet. I have goals and I want to crush them but like I said at the beginning im new to this. I want to work on my routine but really I dont know where to start. I have the Animal handbook and ive read through the forums but I seem to forget more than I remeber when it comes time to get into the gym. Tomorrow im buying a notebook so i can keep track of my progress on paper and so i can help myself get into a solid routine. Up until now ive had a shitty diet but that changes tomorrow. I have oats, eggs, chicken breast, tuna, pasta, potoatoes and some fruits/veggies I dont drink soda and i dont drink coffee. I do however drink milk and almost a gallon of water a day.
I know everyone is probrbaly going to recommend paks for me but at this current time I cant afford it but I am going to buy some whey protien to start. Im just beginning and as soon as court and possibly jail blow over im going to invest more into suppliments...Its a shitty story but I wanted to get it out there...
My goals i wanna reach by Dec 31st 2009
-I have to atleast bench my body wieght for multiple reps
-I would like to deadlift somewhere in the 400 range
-Although I dont know what i squat yet I would like to put up 400+(my legs are my strongest part so i dont see this being a problem)
My arms are my weak spot and I need to hit them hard
Today was an off day and tomorrow I have bi's and abs
Im done talkin does anyone have anything to say that will help me? Where should I start? Can anyone recommend a good routine for tomorrow? This is my 3rd week of bi's so i want to bring up the intensity. I apologizes for the rambling on but I have so many thing going through my head and all I want to do is go to the gym right now. I thank you all in advance.
Pyscho Dave OUT
Now to my present day situation. Because I lost my license obviously i dont drive but i have an awesome family that back me 100% in everything I do. I go back to court on the 23rd to find out if im going back to jail. Did I mention I was on probation already? Its a pretty fucking sad story if you ask me but nothing i cant get over. So maybe ill end up in jail for a few weeks or a few months but right now im held up in my house and the only place i can really go besides here is the gym. I was givin the nickname Psycho Dave by an older friend a couple years ago because I have some anger issues to say the least and i have done things that i am truely sorry for but those days are done as well. I am an animal at heart and thats what I want to become on the outside as well. Right now I would not say im a strong guy whatsoever but i would say im a skinny kid stuck in a fat suit. As of right now I dont have many stats to give. My bench press is embarrassing...I just started to put 135 up for reps. I began a few weeks ago at about 110 i believe. Last week I couldnt deadlift 315 but this week i did it for 3reps. I havent done squats yet. I have goals and I want to crush them but like I said at the beginning im new to this. I want to work on my routine but really I dont know where to start. I have the Animal handbook and ive read through the forums but I seem to forget more than I remeber when it comes time to get into the gym. Tomorrow im buying a notebook so i can keep track of my progress on paper and so i can help myself get into a solid routine. Up until now ive had a shitty diet but that changes tomorrow. I have oats, eggs, chicken breast, tuna, pasta, potoatoes and some fruits/veggies I dont drink soda and i dont drink coffee. I do however drink milk and almost a gallon of water a day.
I know everyone is probrbaly going to recommend paks for me but at this current time I cant afford it but I am going to buy some whey protien to start. Im just beginning and as soon as court and possibly jail blow over im going to invest more into suppliments...Its a shitty story but I wanted to get it out there...
My goals i wanna reach by Dec 31st 2009
-I have to atleast bench my body wieght for multiple reps
-I would like to deadlift somewhere in the 400 range
-Although I dont know what i squat yet I would like to put up 400+(my legs are my strongest part so i dont see this being a problem)
My arms are my weak spot and I need to hit them hard
Today was an off day and tomorrow I have bi's and abs
Im done talkin does anyone have anything to say that will help me? Where should I start? Can anyone recommend a good routine for tomorrow? This is my 3rd week of bi's so i want to bring up the intensity. I apologizes for the rambling on but I have so many thing going through my head and all I want to do is go to the gym right now. I thank you all in advance.
Pyscho Dave OUT