heavy06
06-10-10, 3:51 pm
going to my last BB comp i was filled with the confidence i had built up for monnts..the confidence in my phisique..my first time as a heavyweight...my first time at a show this big..walking in i felt like i belonged there..like this is exactly what i trained for, dieted for, sacrificed for..i weigh in light (205.6)..small for my class of 8. 8 guys that are so tightly packed they look 230 and i start to feel i made a mistake....that i do not belong at this level..that when i step on stage for pre judge im going to look like a middle weight in a heavy weight divison...ive made a mistake..ive jumped the gun on this show...im not ready...pre judge is over, time to nap and focus on the fun part of the night show and start learning from my mistakes...all i can think about is size....im not big enough...night show is done and over, walking back stage the expiditor says exactly what i expected..you didn't make the cut...its done..sitting out the next show and taking a full year to add size, improve and be ready for next year...be the guy in the pump room everyone is looking at to wonder how he got to looking like that...all that is left now is time, eating (a lot of eating) and training....this was my 4th comp...my first show where i did not place.....this was..is.....my wake up call