on my 18th b-day i was free..no more therapy or lockdown,nada..i lost alot of time being stupid..i had a difficult time reajusting to living a regular life and to this day i have never quite been the same.. enough of that..anyways this was the time when i really started to obess about my weight..for me it start out with just flat out no more food,it went in stages,first was cutting things out of my diet,no more fried food,candy,or snacking in between meals and no eating after 6 pm..i remember going to bed and being so hungry my stomach would hurt but it passed over time,i didnt care what my body wanted,i was gonna be thin no matter what it took..the cardio started at this stage too..i walked everywhere,some days i felt like i was gonna faint but i kept on..i was on a mission and nothing was gonna stop me..