I look over this thread and man I am fucked up. My journey has continued and I get stronger every day I don't weigh what I should but I lift like a beast. As in have said in the past I have done damage to myself. Its ireversable which I have to live with . I have had an tooth pulled and have to have 3 more pulled this month. Eventually all of my top teeth will be pulled and I will be getting implants. My dentist tells me he can salvage my bottom teeth but the top teeth are beyond repair. It makes me angry but the only person I can blame is myself . I chose to not eat I chose to weigh 98 pounds I chose to think Ian fat when every bone in my body was sticking out and my clothes hung on my skeleton. I obsessed over the scale and the mirror and never liked what I saw and even now I look and not like what I see. These thoughts have never left me ,too fat , not pretty enuff need to lose weight. I fight the everyday and have for 11 years . it hasn't been easy but then again I do every thing the hard way and I am stubborn . I wouldn't learn if I wasn't. Anger and rage fuel me its a fire that cannot be put out and I don't want it to. It forges me down my path and keeps me in check . there's no bullshit here my brothers and sisters . set the road you travel on and let nothing stand in your way. Knock it down and keep going .