Just stopping by to wish you luck this weekend. Let me know how you do. I'll be waiting by the phone!
I'll let you know!!! Ahhhhhhhhhh........
Fraternal Order of the Animal-Demon
The Crew™
Saraigh
Ohio Valley ABC
Chapter Coordinator
"WE HAVE SENT THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, THE HUNGRY ONES. THIS IS OUR JUNGLE AND WE ARE THE ANIMALS. THIS IS WHERE THE STRONG GET STRONGER AND THE WEAK GET EATEN. THIS IS WHERE MUSCLE AND THE MIND BECOME ONE, FUSION OF THE FUTURE. ONCE YOU ENTER THERE IS NO RETURN. YOU SURVIVE OR DIE. THIS IS OUR PARADISE. BECOME ONE OF US." ~RICK BAYARDI
Good luck this weekend De, not like you'll need it but hey have some fun too
Absolutely looking forward to it!
Fraternal Order of the Animal-Demon
The Crew™
Saraigh
Ohio Valley ABC
Chapter Coordinator
"WE HAVE SENT THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, THE HUNGRY ONES. THIS IS OUR JUNGLE AND WE ARE THE ANIMALS. THIS IS WHERE THE STRONG GET STRONGER AND THE WEAK GET EATEN. THIS IS WHERE MUSCLE AND THE MIND BECOME ONE, FUSION OF THE FUTURE. ONCE YOU ENTER THERE IS NO RETURN. YOU SURVIVE OR DIE. THIS IS OUR PARADISE. BECOME ONE OF US." ~RICK BAYARDI
I know you have my cell#, so I want some "real time" updates.
I had this long pep talk planned out, but you don't need it. You made it, D. There was NO obstacle large enough to stop you, even if it seemed like it would at the time. Good luck, 'cause even the best need a little of that from time to time.
Well, well, well.. What a weekend is all I can say. It didn't turn out EXACTLY as I had hoped, but I made it through it and I am looking forward to what comes next.
Saturday just started off weird. Things were just "off" the entire day and it started Friday night. I felt good about how I looked and knew that the next morning I'd look better. I was better than the last show and I was feeling pretty confident.
Later that night, I ended up getting sick. I was doubled over on the floor with my last meal, sicker than a dog, wanting to throw up and trying to down my last rice cake and PB and I just wouldn't without running to the bathroom. I felt miserable... I was bloated, gassy (sorry) and just felt "bad"... Over the night, I started to cramp. My legs were a mess... I had not felt this kind of pain since the night before the Arnold cramping that I experienced, but it was much worse, and in BOTH legs... Finally got them to ease and fought them 2 or 3 more times through the night.
Got up, feeling nauseated and bloaty, I got ready and thought I looked pretty good for a tomboy at heart trying to pull off a figure girl look...lol Got down to the competitor meeting and we got our numbers.... Gee... "lucky" number 13.... (Wasn't as lucky for me Vin...lol) I couldn't believe it, my first show I was #1, now I was #13...lol I also found out that I COULD NOT get my second coat of my tan and was a little ticked. I was light in some areas and I thought that my shoulders looked BLUE (I think it was from the warm up that I had worn, maybe the dye in the material), I was spotty in some areas, but that happens and I just kind of thought I needed a little touch up here and there. Well I told B about it and he said that he thought I was CRAZY and I would be "fine"... The other figure girls hooked me up with some glaze that helped TREMENDOUSLY and made me feel a little better.
Feeling a little "off" I went about doing my thing. THIS time on stage, I sisn't "wing" it... I was trying to concentrate of "hiding' my flaws, posing for my body (which I was trying to do what was best of MY knowledge) and I think I overthought it. B actually got on me after prejudge and said that I didn't look like I was having fun up there... I thought I did everything right, but evidently my mind wasn't in the game. I was worried about the tan, a little sick, and lost my confidence through the whole thing. I did what I thought was my best and didn't think I did THAT bad of a job, but I was ready for it to be over before it started.
I could tell that I lost the confidence because I wasn't worried about getting pics. During my first show, I was all excited about taking pics and making sure everything was documented etc... This time, I didn't really care if anyone took pics, I felt like crap. My mind was off and I could feel it in my heart, something was "wrong"...
Had my big meal in between shows and I didn't feel like it benefited me at all. I did get that carb "pump" and I just felt like it made my belly bloat more. A buddy gave me some gas x in the morning which seemed to help for the prejudge, but after that the gassy bloat was back. I was miserable again. I took a nap and the cramping started AGAIN. My right calf and the left tibialis anterior were battling it out for who could put me in the most misery.
We came back for the night show and I had basically beaten myself, I just wanted it to be over. Everyone I had talked to said that I looked good onstage, my color was fine, and that I looked at ease (how funny that was...lol) They all had said that they thought I'd place pretty well in the Master's but my height class was going to be tough, which I figured. But, I was okay with whatever because I had had such a rough day, I was cool with it.
We went out and presented in our 2 piece for the night show and awards. They told the top 5 to stay for the awards. Number 13 wasn't called... I was a little shocked, BUT what could I expect? So I didn't place in the Master's, let's see what my class brings. I figured that it would be WORSE in my class because it was a tougher class. I was asked to stay on for the awards. 5th place goes to competitior #13...
So, in a nutshell, I placed 5th in my class and not sure what I did in the Master's. I am not "happy" with my placing, but I know I did what I was told to do, I put in the time that I was supposed to and I know that I have made improvements from my last show. The placing didn't show it, but I know. I have made great strides in the past several months and I am ready to get back on the training and build a stronger base and stay at a decent bf level.
Also, if anyone sent me a text yesterday and I didn't respond, I didn't get it. My hubby sent me 3 while I was backstage and I didn't get a single one AND I had hometown friends send some and I didn't receive them either. I only sent one text yesterday so that kind of shows where my head was...lol
ALSO... Got to watch some ANIMALS train this afternoon at my gym... I will be posting up some pics here in a few... I just wanted to update on the show and let you all know what happened.
More later...
Fraternal Order of the Animal-Demon
The Crew™
Saraigh
Ohio Valley ABC
Chapter Coordinator
"WE HAVE SENT THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, THE HUNGRY ONES. THIS IS OUR JUNGLE AND WE ARE THE ANIMALS. THIS IS WHERE THE STRONG GET STRONGER AND THE WEAK GET EATEN. THIS IS WHERE MUSCLE AND THE MIND BECOME ONE, FUSION OF THE FUTURE. ONCE YOU ENTER THERE IS NO RETURN. YOU SURVIVE OR DIE. THIS IS OUR PARADISE. BECOME ONE OF US." ~RICK BAYARDI
D,
Hey you went out and gave it your best!! That is all you can do! You went through hard times preparing for the competition and with everything going on YOU NEVER GAVE UP!! To me that is more than winning. You stuck with your guns and never let up. I congratulate you! GREAT JOB
A man's country is not a certain area of land, of mountains, rivers, and woods, but it is a principle and patriotism is loyalty to that principle.
George William Curtis
D,
Hey you went out and gave it your best!! That is all you can do! You went through hard times preparing for the competition and with everything going on YOU NEVER GAVE UP!! To me that is more than winning. You stuck with your guns and never let up. I congratulate you! GREAT JOB
Thanks... I'll be back, just going to take a few days off to regroup and gather my wits...lol Need a game plan for the next couple months...
Fraternal Order of the Animal-Demon
The Crew™
Saraigh
Ohio Valley ABC
Chapter Coordinator
"WE HAVE SENT THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, THE HUNGRY ONES. THIS IS OUR JUNGLE AND WE ARE THE ANIMALS. THIS IS WHERE THE STRONG GET STRONGER AND THE WEAK GET EATEN. THIS IS WHERE MUSCLE AND THE MIND BECOME ONE, FUSION OF THE FUTURE. ONCE YOU ENTER THERE IS NO RETURN. YOU SURVIVE OR DIE. THIS IS OUR PARADISE. BECOME ONE OF US." ~RICK BAYARDI
I think this whole last part of your journey and how things went during the meet actually shows how you have grown, D. You felt 'off' and STILL went out there. You did not even feel WORSE, you accepted it for what it was and DID IT regardless. Ending up with 5th place might not be what you were aiming for, but after reading how you felt your posing etc went, i think 5th is still a damn respectable placing.
However YOU might feel about this meet: I CONGRATULATE you on the 5th place and RESPECT the HELL out of you on how you handled the whole meet and the journey towards it.
I think this whole last part of your journey and how things went during the meet actually shows how you have grown, D. You felt 'off' and STILL went out there. You did not even feel WORSE, you accepted it for what it was and DID IT regardless. Ending up with 5th place might not be what you were aiming for, but after reading how you felt your posing etc went, i think 5th is still a damn respectable placing.
However YOU might feel about this meet: I CONGRATULATE you on the 5th place and RESPECT the HELL out of you on how you handled the whole meet and the journey towards it.
I have grown through all this and I have learned a lot about myself. I didn't realize how much it takes to compete and how much it takes to stick it out. I did it, and I will do it again, I just need a little down time to get back to a somewhat normal life WITHOUT a countdown...lol For the past year, I have been on a week by week countdown and I lost so much time in those countdowns...lol They mentioned the other night about the Presidential Election being in like 50 days... I thought to myself, NOOOOOO NO MORE COUNTDOWNS!!!
Fraternal Order of the Animal-Demon
The Crew™
Saraigh
Ohio Valley ABC
Chapter Coordinator
"WE HAVE SENT THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, THE HUNGRY ONES. THIS IS OUR JUNGLE AND WE ARE THE ANIMALS. THIS IS WHERE THE STRONG GET STRONGER AND THE WEAK GET EATEN. THIS IS WHERE MUSCLE AND THE MIND BECOME ONE, FUSION OF THE FUTURE. ONCE YOU ENTER THERE IS NO RETURN. YOU SURVIVE OR DIE. THIS IS OUR PARADISE. BECOME ONE OF US." ~RICK BAYARDI
I haven't been posting, but I have been reading (been on a bit of a rollercoaster myself), but you did one hell of a job!!! After reading what you went through in preparation for this show I can't think of too many people who would have been able to do what you did. Way to finish strong!! It sucks to hear that things took a turn on you the day of the show, but hey that happens to even the pros every now and again, dont let that get ya down. You know we're all proud of you here on the forvm, and we got your back no matter what. Just enjoy a little bit of relaxation and you'll be good to go.
"Simply Believe." Charles 'Mask' Lewis R.I.P
"Stay focused, remain resilient and be intense. Be a leader and an individual. Pour your heart and soul and every ounce of your being into achieving your dreams and you my friend will be a force to be reckoned with." - G Diesel
D you looked phenomenal at the show and I still think you got the shaft. Don't let it discourage you. I know you will be back and hopefully next time you won't get the short end of the stick.
Nothing in life is ever handed to me, I go out take that shit for myself.
I agree with E... you looked great up there and were nothing less of spectacular... you definitely looked confident and I think you should have placed higher. Was great to see you D... been a while since the last time I saw ya. You were the camera man this time.
"DESIRE DETERMINES DESTINY"
"It's all a fucking waste if you're not eating right... if you're not supplementing right... if you're not taking the proper steps to induce growth post workout you might as well stay home and jerk off." - G Diesel
Thanks to all of you... You guys hung by my side through all this and I appreciate it. Like I said, I learned a lot about myself and learned that I am a lot stronger (mentally, physically, and emotionally) than I give myself credit for. We do this stuff because it's what we do...
I did this second competition, not for a particular reason, not for anyone else, not for a title or trophy, I did it for me, to better myself and I did. I did what I was told, I did what I needed to do, and I followed my heart and backed away when I needed to, not to get TOO CRAZY with my personal life, this time.
I have made a promise to myself, I will continue to make improvements to my physique as the days go on and the sky is the limit, I am healthy, happy, and most of all ready to learn... I am a sponge, I want to take in as much info as I can. During my prep, I had blinders on, I had a countdown, a goal date and I knew there were certain parts that I needed to concentrate on. Now I am about taking time to work on my overall package and see how my body responds to FUELED training... I have been running on empty for such a long time, I am ready to go in and just TRAIN to improve as best I can... We'll see what's next...
Thanks again for the comments and compliments... I appreciate all of them and appreciate all of you!!! I could not ask for better support than I have received from you!!!
I am now just trying to find some kind of program to follow before next week. I am taking the week off from the gym, just to kind of give my body a rest, but still doing cardio (not 3 HOURS, but doing some fasting cardio in the mornings) The eating is confusing me a little and I am trying to get back to decent eating, I did have some rice cakes with pb today and my heart started racing, I know it was the carbs, and I don't want that... I need to find something to follow soon...
We had the day off yesterday, a two hour delay today and tomorrow because of the power outages, so that's helped me to be able to get sleep AND cardio in...lol I am trying to get back into the swing of things, I just need a day or two more to rest the old bod...lol
Fraternal Order of the Animal-Demon
The Crew™
Saraigh
Ohio Valley ABC
Chapter Coordinator
"WE HAVE SENT THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, THE HUNGRY ONES. THIS IS OUR JUNGLE AND WE ARE THE ANIMALS. THIS IS WHERE THE STRONG GET STRONGER AND THE WEAK GET EATEN. THIS IS WHERE MUSCLE AND THE MIND BECOME ONE, FUSION OF THE FUTURE. ONCE YOU ENTER THERE IS NO RETURN. YOU SURVIVE OR DIE. THIS IS OUR PARADISE. BECOME ONE OF US." ~RICK BAYARDI
dee, regardless of your tan (which didn't look as bad as you thought!),'
or your placing, i thought you looked great.
you are a great person and a classy lady.
i was at the Upper O for your first show and like i said then...
no matter where you placed (in either show), you are a winner in my book.
dee, regardless of your tan (which didn't look as bad as you thought!),'
or your placing, i thought you looked great.
you are a great person and a classy lady.
i was at the Upper O for your first show and like i said then...
no matter where you placed (in either show), you are a winner in my book.
Thank Joe!!! I have to uphold that persona, I am the "DEN MOTHER"....lol You're a doll and I am so glad to call you my friend!!
Fraternal Order of the Animal-Demon
The Crew™
Saraigh
Ohio Valley ABC
Chapter Coordinator
"WE HAVE SENT THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, THE HUNGRY ONES. THIS IS OUR JUNGLE AND WE ARE THE ANIMALS. THIS IS WHERE THE STRONG GET STRONGER AND THE WEAK GET EATEN. THIS IS WHERE MUSCLE AND THE MIND BECOME ONE, FUSION OF THE FUTURE. ONCE YOU ENTER THERE IS NO RETURN. YOU SURVIVE OR DIE. THIS IS OUR PARADISE. BECOME ONE OF US." ~RICK BAYARDI
Been looking for an offseason plan to follw. Don't want to get too far behind on the diet... I have already started back to the AM cardio just so I don't get lazy. Plan on hitting the weights again on Monday, resting up a bit (and feeling guilty...lol)
Again....
"Trying to "FIGURE" it all out"
Fraternal Order of the Animal-Demon
The Crew™
Saraigh
Ohio Valley ABC
Chapter Coordinator
"WE HAVE SENT THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, THE HUNGRY ONES. THIS IS OUR JUNGLE AND WE ARE THE ANIMALS. THIS IS WHERE THE STRONG GET STRONGER AND THE WEAK GET EATEN. THIS IS WHERE MUSCLE AND THE MIND BECOME ONE, FUSION OF THE FUTURE. ONCE YOU ENTER THERE IS NO RETURN. YOU SURVIVE OR DIE. THIS IS OUR PARADISE. BECOME ONE OF US." ~RICK BAYARDI
30 minutes of morning cardio on the elliptical and 200 crunches (3 sets of 50 upper and 1 set of lower) Going to start food tracking today to see exactly where I stand with my macros... This should be interesting.
Fraternal Order of the Animal-Demon
The Crew™
Saraigh
Ohio Valley ABC
Chapter Coordinator
"WE HAVE SENT THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, THE HUNGRY ONES. THIS IS OUR JUNGLE AND WE ARE THE ANIMALS. THIS IS WHERE THE STRONG GET STRONGER AND THE WEAK GET EATEN. THIS IS WHERE MUSCLE AND THE MIND BECOME ONE, FUSION OF THE FUTURE. ONCE YOU ENTER THERE IS NO RETURN. YOU SURVIVE OR DIE. THIS IS OUR PARADISE. BECOME ONE OF US." ~RICK BAYARDI
Phelps has NOTHING on me today... I am eating like a freaking bulimic (mostly cookies... DAMMIT).... Monday can't come soon enough!!!!
Fraternal Order of the Animal-Demon
The Crew™
Saraigh
Ohio Valley ABC
Chapter Coordinator
"WE HAVE SENT THE MESSAGE LOUD AND CLEAR. WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS, THE HUNGRY ONES. THIS IS OUR JUNGLE AND WE ARE THE ANIMALS. THIS IS WHERE THE STRONG GET STRONGER AND THE WEAK GET EATEN. THIS IS WHERE MUSCLE AND THE MIND BECOME ONE, FUSION OF THE FUTURE. ONCE YOU ENTER THERE IS NO RETURN. YOU SURVIVE OR DIE. THIS IS OUR PARADISE. BECOME ONE OF US." ~RICK BAYARDI