My dedication and strength in this life.

[Preston]

This will be my new "blog," if you will. My new "journal," for those who would like to read about my everyday life that I live. The truth, uncut, uncensored life of Preston Thompson. This is my journey, and where I go from here, is up to me and the will that my brain and my heart desires for most.


Greatness.

"Upon this, I have signed my name in blood."

Follow me.

[Preston]

Woke up today, feeling quite sore from back day yesterday.

Nothing like tearing your back to pieces then attempting to put it all back together with food. I'm finally learning the ways of putting on muscle after losing over 90lbs of fat. Its hard to eat this much food to sustain muscle growth and to keep giving my body the nutrients it needs to grow. I'm not used to shoving down 3500-4000 CLEAN calories in a day. It seemed nearly impossible for me to find 4000 CLEAN calories in a day, but somehow, through all the beef, chicken, rice, and oats, I find the way. It is quite amazing how much weight you seem to pack on to the bar when you shove all this protein and carbs in your body. I'm excited to see where I go from here. To see what kind of strength I gain, and what kind of size my body will gain.

Today is Sunday [ the Lords day ] and my day off of training.

Doing a 4-day split through the week, this is my usual routine.

Monday- Chest and Biceps and Fore-arms
Tuesday-Quads and Calves and Abs + Obliques
Wednesday-Off
Thursday- Traps, Delts, hammy's
Friday- Back day and Triceps Abs + Obliques
Saturday- Off
Sunday-Off

This has been working for me for over a year, and I'm sticking to simplistic core movements to gain thickness in my back, chest, and leggs to give myself the V taper that everyone wants, yet, still keeping a tiny waist.

My current measurements are

Waist- 30"
Chest-42"
Arms-17"
Quads-20"

I just need to thicken up a bit. That's my goal for this year. Then, then we will cut [ again ].


Excited? Me too.

[Preston]

School has to start late due to "extreme weather conditions," meaning I have time to write some stuff in here.

Today is chest and biceps and I'm pretty stoked about lifting today. Everything has been perfect today, the supplements, my eating. All on time. No slips.

Man, todays gonna be a real good day.

[Preston]

I can't tell you how motivated my girl gets me. She's always telling me how good of a job I'm doing, and how much I improve each week. She is such a blessing to have in my life, and hopefully will play a large roll in my future. [ ;) ]

Vocational school was closed today, that meant me going to the gym early.
Oh heck yeah, I did amazing today in the gym. Give myself a pat on the back.

I worked it like 'no otha' in the gym. Did chest, biceps, and fore-arms today. Haven't had a pump like the one I got today, ever. It was so intense.

That's the word for today.

Intense.

P.S - I'm really lucky to of found the girl I did. They most 'def' don't come easy, but when you do find her, and she supports you. Oh man, oh man, its such a blessing.

-Preston

[Preston]

Haven't heard something so convincing for a while. Squats today, happen to be 4:40 at the time I started squatting. Started with a warm-up set of 135, did a quick 12. After stretching, put in 10 more at 225. Now, here is where my form gets kinda nasty. 315 is where I struggle. Whenever I get passed the half-box, my butt wants to kick out behind me, I'm pretty sure that's because I'm letting the weight go on the balls of my feet, instead of my heels. Either way, 10 half-box squats aren't all too bad. Then I power housed 650 on the leg press today. Feelin' pretty good, did 4 sets of 12. Then I hit up the quad extention. My legs were on fire by that time. I was only able to push out 150 3 sets 10 reps, last 3 on each set were held 8 seconds to increase blood flow. Man, nothing like sitting down.

Only if I could get a leg rub-down...

Gonna have to do some suckin' up before I can get that. :\



Ahhhhhhhhhhh shit, just remembered, now I have to go to work till 10:30, thank God tomorrow is a day off. Yeah, thank God.

[Preston]

My brain is a fucked up place, and some people just don't understand when to leave you alone. I swear to you brothers, I'm not in this to

1.) Pick fights
2.) Bully people
3.) Get laid
4.) Impress people

The only reason I do this, is for myself. I'm in this to show myself what I can become and what I can stand. To teach myself discipline, courage and patience.

This process isn't a short one, and I'm in it for the long run. My brain is messing with me today. I've had a good day, but for some reason I'm more irritable than usual. I don't want to put blame on my diet, or anything else. Just, on myself. I can't figure out why I'm always tweaking out on everyone for the smallest thing they could've done.

It's one of those days where you look at yourself, in the mirror, and you're disgusted. I can't stand what I look at. I know that droppin 90lbs+ is a good thing, but I'm not anywhere close to where I want to be. Sure, going from 263 to 170 is really sweet. Sure, but you still get stuck in that rut that can either bring you down and make you quite, or can just make you so frustrated you truck it' straight through that mother fuckin' rut.

It could be that I'm finally realising how ignorant some people are towards others' goals. " To each their own. " You arne't me, and I'm happy as hell that I aint you. You got that great body due to genetics. Amazing bro, congratulations, I'm happy for you. You just don't have any fucking clue what its like to shave away 90 straight pounds of fat into some sort of desired shape. Ya know what? I know what its like to sweat and dry train for a full fucking year, not 16 weeks, or whatever you think is a realistic amount of "weeks" to cut. No, how about 12 straight months of dry draining? You got it? Great! Stick to it brother, its a long ass haul. No worries though, due time, you'll get there.

Where will I go from here? Good question.

-Preston

[Preston]

" Stand up, you know you have the right to speak out for the things you beleive. They will stab you in the back over again, take care and take good aim. "

I've always been on the defense, always looking out for me. Never having a "big brother," or anyone in that matter to stick up for. I was bullied ever since second grade. Everyone always has to pick on the fat kid, till this day, I still don't understand why. I've been shoved to the ground, and kicked in the face. Shit, thats back when playgrounds had concrete grounds and everything was steel.

I started to get more attention in jr. high for some reason, a reason I wasn't quite sure of, till now. I now understand that the only reason that people would associate themselves with me at games, was because I would make a fool of myself, and that would give them something to laugh at. This went on till my sophomore year in highschool, where I finally realized how ignorant people are. How people will use you and make you feel like a worthless piece of shit infront of your entire class.

I guess at 263 your an easy target. This isn't a " large figure " 263, but a fat 263. I really wasn't to worried about my weight, and people liked me for me, or atleast thats what I thought. That's when everything changed my junior year. My friend got me into weights and lifting because he was outta foot-ball for the year due to a shoulder injury, so i would spot him on his cleans and jerks. I stepped in a couple of times to do it, and it felt amazing. The music, the bar, the blisters on my hands. I loved it. That's when the bug bit me. My junior year. Since then, whenever I walk, my hands look like they're in the perfect form like they'd just snugg around a bar. Its akward how something so cold, so quiet, can be your best friend.

There is no joke when they say that the iron is your best friend. When that one guy said " 200 lbs, is always 200lbs, it never changes, or leaves you. "
Something you can always depend on, something, strong to keep you going. Something to give you strength. It's on you to show your will, your strength in this to push through the shit and the words and the looks and the arrogance of the citizens of this world.

I don't care, you can tell me all you want that I "won't make it." Yeah, fuck you bro, fuck you and all your negativity. I don't care if you're a "realist" tell someone who it will honestly effect. I'm going to push and pull and shove and fucking bury this weight. I will defy gravity, laws, theories, and physichs. "Mother nature" doesn't controll me, and these fore-written monotonous rules of expectations can and will be shut down. I refuse to be stopped and I will not stop until I succeed. You're the only brothers I have for support now, and I love every one of you and your support. These other malignant civilians...well, they'll never understand anyway.

-Preston

[Preston]

My whole life has been nothing but work. Ever since I was really young, I'd be out in the yard, or with my dad working at the grain elevator. We didn't have much money, if any when I was younger, so I would always be out to "help" my dad. I had lots of fun with my father, working outside in such a huge place. My hands have been working since I was 5. Whether it was out on the farm, or if it was at his business loading 55g drums all day long. I realyl don't mind physichal labor, because it builds character, and it test[s] the human body and how much it can indure over a day.

You know what I really loved? The fact that when my job was done when I was working at my dads, the job was over. The factor of the same work being there tomorrow, didn't bother me much, because that ment more money, and another great day in the sun.

The job I have now is a never ending bullshit part-time job in a fucking grocery store. I'm a night manager at a wanna-be "high-class," "Your always first," store. I stock shelves with a crew of 3 guy's. We do a hell of a job in that store, always making it look good. The thing I hate about my job, is that when we think we've completed one part of it, it just gets destroyed. Nothing is ever "complete," its only complete until some overly obese citizen comes in a buys 10 pringles for 10 bucks, where, your getting cheated out 28 cents a can. Either way, I hate the fact that when I get done working, I know that everything I have done, is going to get demolished the next day. It's never going to stand, or be there for a while. It's always going to be taken down and be replaced with some new product.

I don't want to be a replacement. I don't want to be here, and just have something else be put in my place. I want to be remembered, and honored. I want people to know my name, and know my beleifs and what I stand for. I'm willing to work for this sort of rememberence, or reverence, if you will. I'm willing to put in the hours, the blood, the sweat, and tears of satisfaction after walking on stage and getting some sort of aknowledgement.

I just want to be rememberd as someone who did something with their life.

-Preston

[Preston]

I don't want to be a replacement. I don't want to be here, and just have something else be put in my place. I want to be remembered, and honored. I want people to know my name, and know my beleifs and what I stand for. I'm willing to work for this sort of rememberence, or reverence, if you will. I'm willing to put in the hours, the blood, the sweat, and tears of satisfaction after walking on stage and getting some sort of aknowledgement.

I just want to be rememberd as someone who did something with their life.

-Preston

I miss you and can't seem to figure out where in my life I was dragged off path? I want to have your passion back. I want to have your goal driven mentality back. I've let life get the better of me which I have always said I would not let happen. I've blown up to 315lbs and have felt like absolute shit for the past 10 months.

I keep telling myself I'm happy and where I want to be in life. These past 12 months have been the hardest of my life. Figuring out I'm not able to give my wife the one thing she wants more than anything has ruined me. Being pulled down by depression, and a complete disregard for life - I gave up. I didn't care if I woke up, and the only thing I wanted to do was sit down, eat and then sleep to forget the day.

I want to be the old me. I need to be the old me. I have a lot of work to do and realize what all it will take to get me back to where I once was. 7 years later, I'm back in the game and am doing this to fight for my life, my wife and God-willing our future children.

[Preston]

This whole past week was great nutritionally and getting myself moving. I'm going to have to take things slow and introduce baby steps which is something that I hate doing. Currently my heart rate is at 198 when walking at 2.5mph @ 5+ minutes. That's not good at all. The more moving I do the better and stronger my heart will be. I want to be all around strong, fit and "look" muscular. I already have wide shoulders and naturally a small waist - it's just all hidden under 7 winters' layers. I'm going to resort to Animal Cuts which is my "go-to" once I get down under 280. I wish they had the old silver cans...to me, those worked amazingly better plus the little tabs were so much easier to take.

This place seems quiet as of the past couple years. I'll definitely be giving it some life from now on. Tonight's workout should be fun. I'm training at a new gym - XPF which is a mash up of hardcore power lifters and a completely different section of the facility for crossfit. I really like the gym, plus it's only $100/year with no sign up fees. It's kind of in the ghetto a little bit - so I worry I'm going to come out and my Jeep is going to me on blocks. Oh well, more cardio back to the house I guess....

[Preston]

This whole past week was great nutritionally and getting myself moving. I'm going to have to take things slow and introduce baby steps which is something that I hate doing. Currently my heart rate is at 198 when walking at 2.5mph @ 5+ minutes. That's not good at all. The more moving I do the better and stronger my heart will be. I want to be all around strong, fit and "look" muscular. I already have wide shoulders and naturally a small waist - it's just all hidden under 7 winters' layers. I'm going to resort to Animal Cuts which is my "go-to" once I get down under 280. I wish they had the old silver cans...to me, those worked amazingly better plus the little tabs were so much easier to take.

This place seems quiet as of the past couple years. I'll definitely be giving it some life from now on. Tonight's workout should be fun. I'm training at a new gym - XPF which is a mash up of hardcore power lifters and a completely different section of the facility for crossfit. I really like the gym, plus it's only $100/year with no sign up fees. It's kind of in the ghetto a little bit - so I worry I'm going to come out and my Jeep is going to me on blocks. Oh well, more cardio back to the house I guess....

My diet :

150 Carbs
225 Protein
90 Fat

Carbohydrates : Whole Wheat Bread / Udon Noodles / Rice / Potato
Protein : Tuna-Cod / Chicken Breasts / Sirloin Steaks
Fat : Extra Virgin Olive Oil / Peanut Butter (Natty) / Macadamia Nuts
Vegetables : Hummus / Celery / Cucumber / Tomatoes / Bell Peppers / Onions / Green Leafy Lettuce / Spinach / Cabbage

This is my diet plan for what seems like to be the next 16 months. I'll be rotating my carbs slightly and will adjust from here.

I'm currently : 315lb / 5'8-1/2" / 26 Years Old / Male

Let's get to work.

[Preston]

Today went relatively smooth. I got a lot of shit done at work, which is great. I couldn't get my mind of going to the gym though. I remember this feeling, and I miss it so much. I remember being in school and feet tapping waiting for that bell to ring and let me free. Same thing here, except the proverbial clock is my parents. Working with family, well, that's a whole different log in itself. Today is lower body :

Body Weight Squats : 2 x 20
Heels on Plates : 2 x 20
Goblet Squats : 4 x 10 (heavy)
Leg Extentions Super-set Leg Curls : 3 x 20

Stair Master : 10 minutes

(even though Ed didn't say I could, I'm still doing mobility - gotta strengthen up these hips)

I really need to warm up slow back into lifting/training. My conditioning is horrible and I'd rather not die while working out to get into better shape.

[Preston]

So in RE: to the fact that we all have those days where we look in the mirror and we're like "what the fuck?" You know what I'm talkin about, even though we put in all this work, we're still going to see the negatives, and barely any of the positives. I'll tell ya what though, having those positive images are the best in the world. I got outta the shower today, saw myself, and just started smiling. I love the work I do, and the bullets of sweat that run down my face when I'm in the gym, and it's all for a good cause. I looked at myself and was like " man...its finally all coming together. "

One year, 90lbs later, I love the image I see. There are still faults, but I'm gonna have to shave them out. Man, I really love what I do.

Thank God today is an off day. It's so great to be lazy, and the fact that I don't have to work makes it all the better. Hey, only two more hours and I get to mow [ again. ] Man do I love food. :)

-Preston.

[Angst]

Looking good bro, keep up the good work

[Preston]

Looking good bro, keep up the good work

Thought I was all alone in this for a while. :]

[Preston]

So, I figure there are a whole shit-ton of sweet things that come with bodybuilding. You get an amazing amount of food, at intense quality. You get to sleep a whole hell of a lot. You get to drink as much water as you want. The only thing you have to do is push every single bit of strength and courage you have in your body against the iron. This whole thing is a science, a complete science. Through years of trials and errors, you have some sort of guidline to follow by. Makes things so much easier.

Oh fuck ya, tomorrow is Monday and everyone knows what Monday is, right?! Chest day, come on fool, the best day there is. Chest and arms. My most favorite day out of the week. Not only that, but I see monday as a "re-birth," kind of like a start over from the past week. I have many goals to acheive this week, and I plan to obliterate every fuckin' on of 'em.

I'm gonna blast through tomorrow, and demolish every 45 plate in my way.

Watch out, this kat doesn't train well with others. ;]

-Preston

[Angst]

You are never alone bro. Good luck with the workout tomorrow.

[Preston]

I dunno what your high school was like, but in my school, if you can't defend yourself, your dead. The one class that really test's me is P.E, funny enough. Everyone in here talks about being a loner and not having friends. Diddo bro, same right here. I can't tell you how many times I've went to check someone in hockey, and get basically raped by three other guys mauling me into a wall. Their main goal wasn't just to check me, but when I was on the ground, they'd punch me and kick on their way back up. So finally, I got sick of it. I honestly don't like fighting, and I think its stupid and you shouldn't get yourself in that sort of position in the first place, but if you must, you better have the balls to defend yourself.

I'm honestly looking for some guidance with this, someone with some good experience with LIFE. Someone older, someone who's knowledgable in this.

Today I was jumped by 2 guy's in the P.E locker room, and I didn't want to get into a fight, but the guy on my left through a punch. Needless to say it was basically "movie" material because when he punched his head went down, and I took it and shoved it into a locker. He fell, and this friend came after me, he got me into a headlock and I simply picked him up and drove him into a locker, where I then punched him in the kidneys three times. He then withdrew from his attempt to beat the shit out of me, and they both left. No blood, just some messed up kids.

I feel really bad about it, I know its self-defense, but at the same time, everyone knows about it and they think I'm just a cocky fuck because I lift and I'm using it to just hurt people. I'm trying to figure out if I did the right thing or if what I did do was a good thing. I guess lifting does help in more than just one area, I just don't want to have it as an excuse.

Aggression is my problem, and I need to learn to control it, and that is why I lift.






P.S- It felt so fuckin' good to rock those guy's. They're pricks anyway.

[brutal]

First off, bro, I just wanted to say that this has been a hell of a read, and Angst is right-you're never alone. You've got the brotherhood with you 110%.

I am just out of high school, but my school was on the edge of the highway-it was just outside the city combined with the ghetto part of the city. It was full of kids who thought they were tough shit because they wore baggy clothes and ran with kids who wore the same color shirt and shoelaces as them. Fact is, they were all bitch made. On more than one occasion I saw these kids who swore they were down with each other watch the other one get beat up, which kind of sounds like these kids.

Looks like these cats underestimated you. They couldn't see the fire you have inside, and that's where they went wrong. I dont condone fighting bro, being an Animal isn't about going around sizing up every kid you see and knowing you could kick the shit out of them. It's not about pride or envy or anything of that. It's about pure love for the iron and taking the giant slab of rock and chipping away at it ever so slowly until you find the statue that's underneath. Do what you have to do bro. Don't hold a grudge against those cats, now they know whats up. Keep updating the log.

[Preston]

First off, bro, I just wanted to say that this has been a hell of a read, and Angst is right-you're never alone. You've got the brotherhood with you 110%.

I am just out of high school, but my school was on the edge of the highway-it was just outside the city combined with the ghetto part of the city. It was full of kids who thought they were tough shit because they wore baggy clothes and ran with kids who wore the same color shirt and shoelaces as them. Fact is, they were all bitch made. On more than one occasion I saw these kids who swore they were down with each other watch the other one get beat up, which kind of sounds like these kids.

Looks like these cats underestimated you. They couldn't see the fire you have inside, and that's where they went wrong. I dont condone fighting bro, being an Animal isn't about going around sizing up every kid you see and knowing you could kick the shit out of them. It's not about pride or envy or anything of that. It's about pure love for the iron and taking the giant slab of rock and chipping away at it ever so slowly until you find the statue that's underneath. Do what you have to do bro. Don't hold a grudge against those cats, now they know whats up. Keep updating the log.

Hey broseph, it's so awesome to know that I have all your guy's support. It feels really good to know that you brothers experience or have experienced a lot of what I'm going through, and your guidance is much appreciated. I'm glad you enjoy reading all this broseph, and I apologize if, at times, it sounds like I'm just bitching. Your mass OT program is amazing, and I'm sure you'll have amazing gains with it. Stick with it broseph, you'll go so far with that.

Peace easy brother.
-Preston