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Thanks Buckfever & Rainman!!
I'm nervous but I feel good about this meet. Was gonna post from work but I had a shitton of work to do (after having almost none all week). Was annoyed but was also glad I got to leave early (for early equpiment check, which was canceled anyway lol). I'm not gonna let shit bother me. Got stuck in horrible traffic this morning, didn't care. Singlet might not be legal, ok I have a spare. I don't give a shit if Arian makes me wear a plastic bag and all the stink wears off my sleeves. I'm gonna lift this fuckin weight. I don't care what record-holder chick comes and outlifts me Ima do my best to get this 830 total. I don't care if my Cracker Barrel breakfast tastes like dogshit and my hip falls apart. Thats what cookies and liniment are for. I don't care if the whole team is there and tells me I'm a fucktard and I suck ass. This aint for them. I dont care if I don't even get drug tested after all these weeks of not smoking weed and remembering all these bizzare dreams. Whatever happens happens. Still a little unsure about squats but I don't care. All I need is to not bomb out and my openers are light. All I know is I'm pulling this 352 tomorrow.
Planned attempts:
247/270/281-6
165/176/181-6
319/352/363 (no light final option for dls fuck it go big or go home)
Not sure wtf that was but I suppose it could have been worse
So that went exactly the opposite of what I expected.
Weighed in at 153 (69.5kgs) like um ok, lighter than expected (was exactly 157 this morning on my scale) but whatever, no big deal.
Squats felt kinda heavy and I was in my head about squats to begin with. My chiro (who goes to my gym) was there helping a girl and I asked him to watch my warm ups and he was sayin my squat depth was borderline (which I've always been concerned with, especially after all the reds I've gotten squatting in the USAPL, so I was kinda like aww fuk. Had decided I would be ok with only my opener in that lift as long as I could stay in the meet and have my chance at the deadlift I was sure I'd get at the end. Opened as planned, got it, went 270 on my second, also got it but it easy. Decided to be smart and go for my ligher final attempt option of 281. Got it. So 3/3 on squats, my worst lift and a 6lb meet PR at about 8 lbs lighter bw. (officially 6lbs ligher than when I squatted 275 last July, but it wasn't a 2 hour weigh in so realistically I was probably 162-3 by the time I got on the platform then) 9 white lights on squats. Pretty good for someone who hates squatting.
Bench felt heavy on warmups so I lowerd my opener to 160. Got it, got 170 on my second, shoulda went 176, got greedy went for the 180 missed it. Ok, whatever bench usually goes that way for me at meets. Still matched my old meet PR at the heavier weight. I'll take it.
Then it was the moment I'd been waiting for all this time: deadlifts. Reapplied the liniment, drank some more concoction. Hit my opener pretty easy, then it was time. Shit, my names up and its taking forever to get my belt on, sniff this shit, shit am I gonna time out? More chalk? Naw fuck it I don't wana time out. Go up to it, pull it. It comes up! Oh shit, its coming up! But wait fuck my hands slipping. Hold on to it, bitch, hold on! Nope. It comes down. I turn around to 2 whites and a red, which are quickly changed to 3 reds. Yep I dropped it. Fuck. This isn't happening again. Im trying again. But nope, I miss it, am burnt out from the second try. No go. Yep, it happened again. 352 wins, and I was so fucking close. What kind of idiot doesn't re chalk before a deadlift PR? This one. I can't remember the last time I was so mad and disgusted with myself. I ask if I'll be tested cause if so I'll stay so it won't get counted as a positive. Nope, not today. Still haven't done that good apparently. So I leave. Arian says don't I want my award? Im like no. Im thinking lol what award?
Someone msgs me that I came in 3rd after the 2 record holders. Didn't think I'd placed at all so I was surprised. I really wasn't paying attention to who else lifted what and after seeing my order on squat openers I was like lol ok I'm not placing so whatever. And its in kilos so I can't tell whats on the bar even if I did try to pay attention. So 6/9. 770 total. Could have been better but I guess it could have been worse. 3/3 squats, 2/3 bench and 1/3 deadlifts. Who am I? What was that? Left with a 319 deadlift. Gross.
So now Im gonna hold the deadlift at the end of the set and get my grip strong as fuck so even if I do some stupid shit like this again, it won't slip out of my hand. 358, I'll see you in July, cause fuck 352. I feel like that # is bad luck or some shit I don't even want to attempt it again. So that's that: 281/170/319 @153. See yall in Journey to My Elite Total, since I still don't have one.
So that went exactly the opposite of what I expected.
Weighed in at 153 (69.5kgs) like um ok, lighter than expected (was exactly 157 this morning on my scale) but whatever, no big deal.
Squats felt kinda heavy and I was in my head about squats to begin with. My chiro (who goes to my gym) was there helping a girl and I asked him to watch my warm ups and he was sayin my squat depth was borderline (which I've always been concerned with, especially after all the reds I've gotten squatting in the USAPL, so I was kinda like aww fuk. Had decided I would be ok with only my opener in that lift as long as I could stay in the meet and have my chance at the deadlift I was sure I'd get at the end. Opened as planned, got it, went 270 on my second, also got it but it easy. Decided to be smart and go for my ligher final attempt option of 281. Got it. So 3/3 on squats, my worst lift and a 6lb meet PR at about 8 lbs lighter bw. (officially 6lbs ligher than when I squatted 275 last July, but it wasn't a 2 hour weigh in so realistically I was probably 162-3 by the time I got on the platform then) 9 white lights on squats. Pretty good for someone who hates squatting.
Bench felt heavy on warmups so I lowerd my opener to 160. Got it, got 170 on my second, shoulda went 176, got greedy went for the 180 missed it. Ok, whatever bench usually goes that way for me at meets. Still matched my old meet PR at the heavier weight. I'll take it.
Then it was the moment I'd been waiting for all this time: deadlifts. Reapplied the liniment, drank some more concoction. Hit my opener pretty easy, then it was time. Shit, my names up and its taking forever to get my belt on, sniff this shit, shit am I gonna time out? More chalk? Naw fuck it I don't wana time out. Go up to it, pull it. It comes up! Oh shit, its coming up! But wait fuck my hands slipping. Hold on to it, bitch, hold on! Nope. It comes down. I turn around to 2 whites and a red, which are quickly changed to 3 reds. Yep I dropped it. Fuck. This isn't happening again. Im trying again. But nope, I miss it, am burnt out from the second try. No go. Yep, it happened again. 352 wins, and I was so fucking close. What kind of idiot doesn't re chalk before a deadlift PR? This one. I can't remember the last time I was so mad and disgusted with myself. I ask if I'll be tested cause if so I'll stay so it won't get counted as a positive. Nope, not today. Still haven't done that good apparently. So I leave. Arian says don't I want my award? Im like no. Im thinking lol what award?
Someone msgs me that I came in 3rd after the 2 record holders. Didn't think I'd placed at all so I was surprised. I really wasn't paying attention to who else lifted what and after seeing my order on squat openers I was like lol ok I'm not placing so whatever. And its in kilos so I can't tell whats on the bar even if I did try to pay attention. So 6/9. 770 total. Could have been better but I guess it could have been worse. 3/3 squats, 2/3 bench and 1/3 deadlifts. Who am I? What was that? Left with a 319 deadlift. Gross.
So now Im gonna hold the deadlift at the end of the set and get my grip strong as fuck so even if I do some stupid shit like this again, it won't slip out of my hand. 358, I'll see you in July, cause fuck 352. I feel like that # is bad luck or some shit I don't even want to attempt it again. So that's that: 281/170/319 @153. See yall in Journey to My Elite Total, since I still don't have one.
WOW!!! So close you were right there. I'm proud of you for sure.