[Tork]

This is my Diary,

Today I was asked the question of all questions...the same one I ask myself everyday...Why do you do this?...


I replied I do this because when I wake up in the afternoons and I take a look in that mirror I tell that guy that you can do better. You will do better. I look in the mirror and think where are you going? To the gym is always the answer that comes back. Still I get the question why? Where do you get your motivation to go to the gym everyday? To eat fucking 10 meals a day...to listen to Tool and Godsmack till your ears Bleed? I say to them because I am what I want to be and that is Defined. Something that no one else is. Every day I have to redefine myself. I have to make myself better. I have to do something to myself to prove that I can and will be better than all the regular joes out there that sit on the couch and scrutinize.

I am All That Is Animal because I don't quite. I don't follow a path I make the motherfucker. I look in the mirror and I tell that guy that the little ring around your midsection is getting smaller but it isn't small enough. I tell him that your traps and chest look good, but you still need more. I tell him that 202 pounds is only Regular not Animal. I tell him that 16% BF is unacceptable. I tell him to go fix it. I tell him to get his ass in the gym. I tell him it is going to hurt. I tell him it is going to be full of soreness. I tell him that it aint no fucking picnic, and most of all I tell him....no one else is doing it so you must lead the way.

I get to the gym and I see all of those that claim to be bigger than me. I see them...I watch them....they cheat on reps, they bounce bars off thier chest, they lean on the bench try to schmoose a chick, I let them. I know that they don't have what it takes, look at those chicken legs, look at those small forearms. They don't care about anything that doesn't have to do with the beach muscles.

I go to my place, ear buds in raging music in my ears, slight look down at the floor in concentration thinking about the next exercise and rep. Feeling out my senses analyzing thinking listening to my body. I don't do this for the chicks, I don't do this for the numbers, I don't do this for them, I do this for me, I do this because this is my life, this is my motivation.

After hearing this explaination, all I ever get is oh...ugh...your obsessed. I just shook my head and said you don't even understand.

I am going to continue this thread everyday, put my thoughts in, anyone who wants to follow on lets roll.

[Tork]

Today is chest day.
Pak, Flex, Nitro, Cuts, Shock Thereapy 30 minutes prior to workout.
I got to the gym and I saw all of the so-called regulars and I just tried to ignore them and stay away. I started with incline, 95 x 25, 135 x 15, 145 x 12, 150 x 10, 155 x 8 + 2 neg with no rest. I was feeling good after this, dropped in my storm, and started with DB pullovers. 40x20, 55x12, 65x10, 75x10 good stretch. I got stopped and asked about DB pullovers and what he was doing wrong. I told him nothing, just sink your ass a little more. I don't mind being stopped for advice, but I hate being stopped and told that I am wrong and should do it this way. I moved on to the Hammer Strength Machine for Wide Grip Presses, 140x15, 160x12, 180x10, 200x8 + 3 Negatives. I did a one second hold and squeeze at the top of each rep for all on the HSM. 35 minutes on elipticle at resistance 6 on Manual. I am cutting so I cardio everyday.
Nitro directly as I leave and Max + 1/2 cup of oats half hour later.

I love the eye candy in the gym, but I hate it too, great for looking at, but all these chicks come in here and flaunt thier selves and shit, I hate that, I don't go to the gym to see that shit, wish I could find just a little hole in the wall, and quiet without the damn R&B Love songs going.

[Tork]

Today is Shoulder Day, I get irritated on shoulder day because I feel that shoulders are my week point and I just don't seemt to know enough good exercises to bust em' up. I am going to have to get Animal Training DVD for Delts.

So anyways, last week I did Behind Neck Press and front ss lat raises, and lawn mowers. This week, I got to do something else and I only know a few more exercises.

Pak, Flex, ST 30 mins prior. I am off the cuts as of today for a week. I decide to try something, Nitro during the workout with the storm and directly after.

High Pulls with EZ bar
65x15, 85x12, 95x10, 95x10 all slow and controlled with a good sec squeeze at the top.

Nitro and Storm in. I just sip the storm through out this next exercise.

Sitting Front Raises
25x12, 25x12, 30x10, 30x10 all slow and controlled

Barbell Shrugs
135x20, 1 second pause at top for good squeeze
185x15, same good pause for squeeze
225x12, same good pause for squeeze
245x4x4, grip loss after 4 had to drop bar, went directly back picked it up and grip lossed again after 4, not enough squeeze, pissed me off, so I decide to do another exercise.

Double lawnmower pulls
20x12 nice and slow
30x8 barley made 8
30x10 little cheat on last rep, but still got the nice slow pull

20 mins bike on HILL Climb. Resistance ranged started at 4 all the way up to 16 and back down to 10 to the end. This was really hard for me, legs ached afterwards.

Nitro with water when I hit the Car, 1/2 C. Oats and Max 30 mins later.

So during my last exercise of lawnmower pulls, some guy who is tall and chicken legged was doing cable pec flys. put like 90 on the cable and leans forward far as he can and pushes with his arms at his arm pits like doing a regular flat bench. I just let him think he was big and doing the exercise completely wrong. I asked him, I says he bro, you mind if I get in between your sets? He say sure. I think he thought I was doing the same exercise as him. Of course I wasn't and if I was, I would show him up anyways without sayin nothin. So, I lower each side of the cable machine to the bottom so I can do my lawn mower pulls. He freaks out, jumping in means you do the same exercise as me. I told him I wasn't doing chest I was doing shoulders. He got all pissed and left and went to some free motion machine to finish his wanna be fly's. I was content, I pissed someone off because I moved the cable down. I love pissing people off without trying, this is the military and when you are a SGT like I am, people don't bother to say shit to you when you do stuff like I just did.

This guy easily out weighed me and was much taller, but point of the fact is you don't have to be rude to tell some one to fuck off. I pretty much told him to fuck off with out saying it. I didn't even try to do it. If someone wants to jump in with me I let them, it is not hard and it don't take long to move the cable wheels up and down the tower. What an asshole, glad that guy doesn't work for me.

After this incident, some chick comes in with that smelly fucking shit on!! Damn do I get mad about that bullshit, I am trying to breath while I am biking and this bitch wants to come flaunt her fat ass around. She wasn't even good looking which is the worst part, atleast if she was good looking, I could have something to stare at. This is why women and men should not share a weight room...this is not a bar....this is not a place to meet chicks....this is IRON....live, eat, breath, and love the Iron! This is what separates the MEN from the BOYS!

[twisted_steel]

Right on brotha!!! I love your posts...keep it up and post ur thoughts and experiences. i love reading this shit...makes me realize im not the only one whos dedicated to the game...to the iron game. But i must say, those fucking bimbos in the gyms do make things nice sometimes...and sometimes u just wanna wrench their little necks.

[steelarms]

bro you wrote a master piece and it should be remembered

[MANABOLIC]

lool ! finally some1 has a bad ass attitude ! my posts have been pissing all those "touchy-feely" dudes around here coz I was "too aggressive" and "selfish". fuck the other guys at the gym, i am the alpha male, when i want a piece of equipment, i do get it. i have been busting my balls, day in and day out for 12 bloody years. who cares if others workout or not ? when u are a skinny kid or a beginner, u wait for ur turn to grow and u pay ur dues. i did that, even now, if a bigger dude came around and asked to use what i was using, i wud give it to him. big guys earn that. it's like a pack who must have 1 leader. i eat first, i train first, then fuck all the rest. let the food chain massacre begin !

[Carpe Diem P.T]

Tork here understands humility and respect. You seem to fall a bit short every time.

Leader: a person who rules or guides or inspires others ...

Your theory on others is 'who cares if others workout or not'.

Your not badass, you just have a bad attitude.

2) Leave Your Ego At The Door ...
We don't need to hear how you're better than everyone else in your gym, how you're more hardcore. There is always someone bigger and stronger than you... In here, we expect humility and respect... We expect an atmosphere of support and positive thinking.

I have had my say to you and you wont hear directly from me again.

I hope things turn around for you and you manage to have a more positive outlook on life and those around you.

[Iron 3]

hey Tork. Posts look pretty good so far. Look forward to reading more.

[GorillaGenetics]

you just seem disrespectful man your the kinda person that makes people who dont understand bodybuilding assume that big guys in the gym are dickheads. if you are as big as you think you are and show every one up on machines at the gym you should use your knowledge to help inexpierienced people out not cut in on them when they are doing flys inproperly and bein a dickhead.

[Tork]

Originally Posted by GorillaGenetics

you just seem disrespectful man your the kinda person that makes people who dont understand bodybuilding assume that big guys in the gym are dickheads. if you are as big as you think you are and show every one up on machines at the gym you should use your knowledge to help inexpierienced people out not cut in on them when they are doing flys inproperly and bein a dickhead.

No, you need to understand something. There is a un-written rule that most experienced gym goeres know. We know that when you are in the gym, you do not stop a total stranger in the middle of a set to tell him that he is fucked up. If I spent my time in the gym correcting people, I would never get my own workout done. Plus this guy was bigger than me and probably stronger, but the point is, he probably would look at me and think that I didn't know nothing anyways.

On the other hand, I see your point, but you have to understand that you have to have a partner or someone you know, and then you casually ask if you could suggest something without being rude. Think about it, if you were doing a exercise and some complete stranger came up to you and said hey, you doin it all wrong, would you get pissed off? Most people are not that open to perfect strangers right or wrong.

There, I gave you both sides of the arguement, don't be thrown the name callin around, it just proves your ignorant.

Thanks to all of you who like my thread and read it. I will continue to post my thoughts and my examinations in the gym and of my diet and of what I think. Just remember, these are my personal opinions, it doesn't mean that they are right.

[Tork]

Arm Days...

How else do you describe Arm days? The one day that it seems the day that everyone is doing no matter what day of the week it is. If I decide to do arms yesterday there would be a million mothefuckers using all of the DB's and BB's and Cables and shit. This is the only day that I hate doing everytime I go to the gym because I have to wait for shit and I seem to loose my heart rate sometimes waitin so long.

So today I tried something different. I usually show up to the gym at 1600. Today I showed up at 1500. Worked out perfectly, not near as many people using everything. So I walk in and I meeted by the same smiling faces that I see everyday when I walk into the gym. They say hi like they do everyday and then they smile at each other and giggle like they do everyday.

I don't really know what that means, they are all chicks and well they work there, and they do the same thing everytime I come in the gym. Fuck it I don't care I am married anyways. So I get stopped on my way to the water fountain and asked by someone...don't know who this guy is, but he says, man I see you in here everyday and you just seem to get bigger and bigger and bigger. What are you doin? I look at him, I smile and I say what no one else will.

He looks all confused, looked at me and says what might that be? Is it a exercise? Supplements? Fat Burning pills? I said no it is none of those things. He says then what? I said, passion, sweat, blood, tears, pain, food, food, food. He said I have all that and I am not getting any bigger. I said well then you missing one thing and said what is that. I said ANIMAL.

ANIMAL? What the fuck is Animal? I said it is a way of life...I finished walking to the water fountain and filled my shaker with my Storm and my Liter bottle of water. I then head to the Dip Bars...

Dips
BWx15, BWx12, 10+BWx10, 25+BWx5 + 5 more BW to failure.
All dips I do deep to full contraction and extension. Slow and Controlled for good burn

1 Arm DB Preacher Curls
30x12x2, 30x12x2, 35x10x2 after 7 Assist last 3, 35x10x2 after 4 Assist last 6
I did these extremely slow, 2 or 3 second extension, plus 1 second plus a squeeze at the top.

Storm and Nitro In

Sitting Dips
BWx20, 45+BWx15, 100+BWx12, 125+BWx8
All of these I did deep like usual and slow and controlled

Reverse Grip Straight Bar Preachers
45x12, 55x12, 55x10---fail, 55x8---fail

Overhead Rope Ext.
80x15, 90x12, 100x10
At the top of these I twist my wrists so that the palms face out adds a little extra burn at top. Good pause with a slow and controlled movement.

Straight Bar (Cable) Curls
80x15, 90x12, 100x10
I put a pause at the top for good squeeze for each rep.

I didn't have time for Cardio today because I had to be to work a bit early.

So I failed at making my shoulders sore. I thought I had a pretty good workout yesterday. I am going to have to do something. Maybe I won't ever be able to get them bitches sore.

What am I to do?

So the good ole' boy I was try to explain Iron to in the beginning of the day stopped me again on the way out and said, what did you do different then me today? I asked him what he did? He said I did Arms. So what exercises did you do? I did curls with the Bend Bar and DB curls and tricep pushdowns with the machine. I said, what about dips, what about preachers? He said I don't like those exercises they make my arms hurt. I said that is why I get bigger and your not. You have to want the pain, you have to like the pain, you have to be sore the next day or your just spinning your wheels.

He looked at me and said, Oh ok, I see you tommarrow. I see ya tommarrow, by the way what are you doing tommarrow? He said Chest, I said ok, if you need help just ask and I will give you a hand....

So, as I hopped in the truck I thought to myself, I got another, another Animal in the making...

[Tork]

There is that Word...most fear it...most hate it...some avoid it....

I anticipate it....I own it....LEGS!

Today is the much anticipated Legs Day for me....I fucking love legs!!!! Since my dissapointing workout from last week pissed me off so much, I decided that I would punish myself today and see if I can get my weights up. I think I succeeded. I haven't compared my weights to the week prior to last, but I will and of course we will see.

So i made a mistake today...i walked into my gym as usual and as usual it was empty because well it is friday and everyone has to go drink tonight so they are at home primpin and all that...Me I am right where were I belong I am home.

So, I am on my last set of squats and after 6 sets of slow deep and controlled squating, I was fucking done...DUN! So as I pick up the weight it feels heavy as shit...not usual for me to pick up 245 and it is heavy as shit. I have owned this weight for a long time, so it to feel heavy means I am getting weak. Fuck it, time to own it out...I want 8 reps, but I know I will probably on get 6.

So i pick up the weight and with Godsmack blaring in my head, I say fuck...I guess it was just a little louder than i thought, because after the set, the big guy next to me told me to watch what I say there are Civilians in here, he said just scream next time....
I kind of shrugged it off and said ok, sorry. Thinking to myself what a jackass! Then after contemplation, I was wrong. It is not very professional to scream FUCK, whether I screamed it or not, I didn't push the argue issue it was just a ok. I mean the guy was a nice guy and wasn't a dick to me, so I was nice back and not a dick. It is ok to be wrong and I was wrong, so I told him sorry and I won't do it next time.

So this is what my workout looked like...

Squats (slow and controlled, Ass in the Grass) we are talking about 1-2 seconds on the down and 2 seconds on the up. Put the Storm and the Nitro in after 205 set.

135x15,135x15,195x12,205x10,215x8,225x8,245x6.

I almost puked after the 245x6. It just felt really heavy and I knew i was getting weak. I still think that that was a pretty solid squat session and I think it was better than the one 2 weeks ago.

Weighted Lunges DB Alternating (this is per leg)
2 25x 10, 2 30x10, 2 35x 10, 2 40x8 (15 second pause, pumped out last 2)

Leg Extensions (Machine) good burn to finish them off
110x10, 120x10, 130x10

Leg Curls Sitting (Machine) good burn to finish them off
90x10, 110x10, 120x10

Legs are now weak and rubbery...best feeling in the world.

Calf Raises Weighted one foot at a time (machine) 1-2 second pause at the top for squeeze
50x10x2, 60x10x2, 70x10x2

Calf Raises Weighted (Machine) 2-3 second pause at the top, really slow and controlled
110x10, 120x10, 140x10

After all that I did 15 minutes on the Elipticle on a flat course at a resistance of 3 at a stride of 150+ per minute. This was just to help take some of the sore out for tommarrow maybe. I don't know if it will help, but I still needed to get some cardio in anyways.

I stretched for 5 minutes after all exercises. I got to the truck and took my Nitro with the Torrent.

I got the Torrent in last night and i was so excited to stick it into my arsenal of supps. I can not wait till tommarrow to see how it affects me. The count down is still on for Omega 3 days left...soon...oh so soon....

[Tork]

So I decided to look and compare my weights from a few weeks ago and I think I definatley improved. Not only did I do more reps with the same weight, I hit all of my rep ranges, except the last one and that was still more then a couple of weeks ago.

So today is back day...Back day...there is no other day. You have to have a strong back to really have any core strength. So I got the Series IV Animal Training Video in the mail the other day. I was going to watch it today because I am doing Back go figure right? I just ran out of time and did not have a chance to watch it. Wrath does say that they key to having a strong back is going OLD SCHOOL...you definatly have to get the DVD. He has his basic workout and exercises he swapps in and out in it.

So I went to do back today. Same time same place. I walk in and it is fairly dead. I start doing my workout and it went something like this...

Old-School T-bar Rows (slow and controlled feel the squeeze)
45x15, 90x12, 115x10, 125x10, 135x8, 145x8
swap the hand on top every other set

Bent Rows Hook Grip
135x15, 155x12, 165x10, 175x10, 185x8
Storm and Nitro In after the 175 set

Bent Row (Machine) Hand face each other
90x12, 115x10, 125x10, 135x8

90 Degree Lateral DB Raises
25's x 10
20's x 10
25's x 10
25's x 10

30 mins on the Row Machine at 30+ strokes a minute. I went for 5 mins straight then rested for 45 seconds for water. I did a total of 5917 meters.

I took my Pak, Flex, Nitro and ST 30 mins prior to workout. Storm and Nitro during. Torrent directly after followed my Max and 1/2 cup of oats 30 mins later.

So, I asked a complete stranger who I watched prior to me doing my DB Lateral Raises if I was doing them right because this is a new exercise for me that I don't do very often. He told me I was doin them right. I did 25 and then went down to 20 and back up to 25 because I wasn't sure if I was doing them right. Once I was sure that I was, I laid it on and went real good speed so I could feel the squeeze in my back. I am going to add these to my back workout. They make a good burn...

[Tork]

So today is Chest day. My buddy finally wore me down and told me that I could not hang with his chest workout. I told him I don't care about numbers and how much I could bench if I did this workout, or how much he does bench. He said I don't go to they gym for anyone but myself. I was like well, I know you bench way more than me, so I will do this, because I haven't changed my Routine in months, so i will try something different.

So he wore me down, and well I have to say I suprised myself and faired pretty well. I think I am going to workout with him for a while and do his routine to change mine up. He goes up and down with the Reps. The flat bench was supposed to be 5 sets of 8 reps. Incline was 10 8 6 4 2, but we did 3 instead of 2. Decline was 5 sets of 5. Pullovers was 3 sets of 8.

See he had some formula he found about making the intensity of your first and last set the exact same by doing a pyramid of reps and adding weight. Then next exercise is supposed to build on your intensity by just raising the weight and doing to same reps. I don't quite understand the whole thing, but I know this I am going to be fucking sore after all the shit today. We had 3 people total today and we worked out for 2 and 1/2 hours. Obviously some time was spent changing weights and for rest periods, but it was fucking intense and I thought it might be cool to try this out for a while. So check this shit out....

Flat Bench
135x15, 155x8, 185x8, 205x6+2 Assist, 225x1 + 7 Assist

Incline Bench
155x7, 165x6, 170x6, 175x4, 190x2 + 1 Assist +1 Neg

Decline Bench
135x15, 185x5, 195x5, 205x5, 215x3+2 Assist

DB Pullovers (slow and controlled, feel stretch)
75x9, 80x8, 80x7

Skullcrushers (slow and controlled with concentration on form)
65x10, 70x8, 75x6

Tricep Pushdowns (Rope) Cable Machine 1 second pause SS Dips
90x10 SS 2, 100x8 SS 1, 110x7 SS 1+1 Assist

20 minutes of Tread Mill at a incline of 4.0 at a speed of 5.6 or more.

These weights and reps are my weights and reps. I got pinned on a few here and there, but I earned and burned some extra stuff later on. It was damn intense and I was pumped for the majority of the workout. I didn't start feeling tired till after the skullcrushers when we got to the Tricep pushdowns and Dips. I was fucking dead by then as you can tell with me only getting 1 or 2 dips. I usually get weighted dips for reps, so that is how I know this shit was intense.

Give this shit a try, promise you will be damn sore the next day. I ordered my Omega yesterday can not wait to get that shit in the mail. It is going to be great. Then my stak will be complete.

[Tork]

Man I hate being late and short on time. Today I had like 45 minutes to get my fucking workout in due to a whole bunch of bad luck. Having to chase down my dog, following fucking school buses and shit. I threw in a Super Set just because I wouldn't have finished if I didn't...

Front Plate Raises (slow and controlled and look through hole)
25x20, 45x12, 45x12, 45x12, 45x12

DB Press Sitting (slow and controlled)
50x10, 50x10, 55x8, 55x8

Front DB Raises Super Set Lateral Raises
25x10 SS 25x10 (for all 4 sets)

No cardio do to no time.
Did not take my torrent at the end of the workout today because I was still sipping my storm on the second to last set.

[Tork]

Arms today and plenty of time for them. I got there extra early. Today seemed to be hottie day at the gym. It was good and bad. I didn't loose my concentration, but the smells drove me fucking nuts. I don't like to smell vanilla and sweet flowers in the Iron Palace. Then what drove me nuts is I was doing my Kickbacks and these 2 real hot ones with great asses came and stood right in front of me when I was starting my Sets. I was using the mirror to make sure that I was getting great extensions and well they stuck there nice asses right in front of my view. FUCK...irritating but in a nice way I guess. Fortunately for them I didn't say what I wanted too...

Standing EZ Bar Curls (slow and good for the burn)
35x20, 75x12, 80x8, 80x8 (2 cheat), 80x8 (1 cheat)

KickBacks DB 1 Arm at a time (slow and controlled, 1 second pause at full extension)
20x15x2, 30x10x2, 35x10x2, 35x10x2, 35x10x2

Preachers EZ Bar (1-2 seconds on the Neg)
35x15, 65x9, 65x7, 65x6, 65x5+2 Negatives

1 Arm Cable pushdowns (1-2 second pause on the full ext.)
40x15x2, 60x12x2, 70x12x2, 75x12x2, 75x12x2

30 mins interval Elipticle at 200+ Strides per Minute. Resistance on the bottom was 4 and incline was at 6. Incline at top was 10 and resistance was 6.

[Tork]

As I look around at everyone staring at me....I am dripping with sweat, Shut up and Train shirt soaked through, chest raises and falling rapidly as I try to catch my breath. I just put up 520+sled for 7 reps on 14 set of the day....100 lb plate + 4 pies looks on each side looks so sexy....I don't do this for the numbers but I fucking impressed myself today....I also learned that my gym etiquet sucks...there is a gym etiquet? What in the fuck is this world comming too...

I was reading a article on BB.com and I saw a article on how to met girls or guys at the gym and what to look for. I wanted to shoot myself in the face. They say it is the newest spot to meet the opposite sex....fuck that....and if you get bothered by my screaming because that why everyone was looking at me....suck it up and stop being a bitch....you got something to say about that....well I don't care to hear it....

The workout...

Hack Squat Machine (No cables) Sled weighs 54lbs empty
54x15, 104x15, 144x15, 254x12, 284x12, 324x8, 334x5 Fail, 344x4 + Dropset 254x7 Fail

Leg Press (all weights plus sled)
340x15, 380x12, 430x10, 470x10, 500x7, 520x7, 560x2 Fail

Calf Press Toes In (2 second pause at top, 1 sec on pos., 2 sec. on neg.)
290x12, 290x12, 290x12, 290x12

Calf Press Toes Out (2 second pause at top, 1 sec on pos., 2 sec on neg.)
290x12, 290x12, 290x12, 290x12

No Cardio ran out of time

[Tork]

So I finally got a chance to try out Wrath's Back workout from the Animal training DVD. I watched and took notes. One thing that I did notice about his back workout is that he uses straps for everything on back day. Now, I wasn't getting as sore as I am now 2 days later since the workout. I am glad that I used the wrist straps finally. I have had them and never used them...I just have to make sure that I do grippers.

DL's after 3 isolation exercises is no joke people. I usually do my compounds first, but I did the same order that the DVD showed his exercises in and well, I kicked my own ass. I can DL 300 alot more then 3 times on a normal basis, but I don't care about the numbers, it is all about the Soreness.

So, I noticed something else, I got the torrent and been taking it for PWO shake and have gained 2 lbs in the last week or so that I have been taking it. I do not like this at all. I also have lost no more inches since the last measurement on the 15th. I am the same. So I am going to cut the torrent out do to the 52g of carbs. I asked OX for some advice on my diet also. And see what happens from here, but here is the workout and what it looked like. Better yet, just click on my signature if you wanna see the workout, why am I posting it 2 times everyday? Just occured to me right now.

I also am changing my PB intake in my diet. I am going from Natty Skippy to Natty Smart Choice because the Smart Choice Natty uses Flaxseed oil and Omega-3 to make its base. It has a little palm oil in it, but not near as much as Natty Skippy. It is a little more expensive too, but definately has more of a positive effect on my diet I think.

I have to take the next week off except for cardio due to the Marine Corps PFT on this comming friday. I know I am going to do well, but I want to be at full strength so that I can do the best that I can do. I will keep my diary updated with all my thoughts throughout this week still. I am going to go nuts not being able to hit any iron.

I recieved my Omega on Saturday and have been taking it for 2 days now and already have noticed more energy. My piss smells a different after I take it. Not like a pak piss though. I can not wait to see what this does for me. I also got the delts DVD see if this has a good impact on my shoulders.

[Tork]

So today I decided to do some Cardio in Prep for this PFT on this upcomming friday. Man do I fucking hate cardio, but I have gotten quite good at it. I also ate shit today. Fuck and I hope I will be able to recover before friday. So here is what happened. I started my run and I was doing quite well. I had about .3 miles left of a total of 3 miles. I got to the entrance of my road and my road is gravel. Thinking nothing of it, I am still bookin, I am at 21 minutes approx. (what my watch says) to my drive way it is .3 miles approximately. So I keep on keepin on and I take a step with my right and not even 1 second later, I put my left down and I roll the shit out of it and eat gravel. Fuck did it hurt. Fucking hurt so bad. I guess I stepped on a rock....I got up and continued to limp to the drive. I made it in 27 mins and some change. I guess I could have made it in 23 if I was jogging and didn't fuck myself up.

I roll my ankles alot and I bought a brace, my right one is the one I usually fuck up. Well it was my left one today and I hope that I can get it well enough for friday. I don't wanna fucking go on Light Duty and have to take another week off. Good to say though that I think I am done the rest of this week with cardio unless my ankle says otherwise.

This is just fucking great, I am already goin insane....

[Pizzalamp]

damn im sorry bro...i hope youre able to heal up soon